Revealing the mystery of Cool

Ending this blog

2007-05-10T06:25:00.000-07:00

I fail to create my own template for this blog.
But I'm sorry. My new life needs a need blog. Let bygones be bygones. It's time for a new life.
Visit my new blog at: http://cheeki-kool.blogspot.com/
:D

Hope you guys like it there better. :D Read my first post.

How's my life now...in RP

2007-04-30T08:47:00.000-07:00

Okay, it's been almost a month since I posted an entry. I'm getting very busy nowadays. Not only with school but also work. I realise that my pays are not enough to satisfy my needs. Currently, it's enough but soon to come I wont have any more time to work after all the IGs.

My plan might be at risk soon. I'm thinking of finding another job. But the problem is the distance between my home, school and my workplace. If I were to work after school at any other place besides my current one, then I need to consider my time. How long it takes to get to my workplace from my house?

I have many people asking me whether am I tired after school and going to work. Physically, I dont really feel tired...only when I wake up in the morning. Mentally, MAYBE I'm tired. I find working, talking to customers getting more boring as days pass. Not inspired by anything. Furthermore, i was jeopardised of cashing out wrongly. To make matters worse, I get angry quite easily. I always feel like bringing down those idiots who block my path to work(cos' i am always in a rush). There's a likelihood I might get violent in times to come.

One of the way to solve this, is to either endure for the next 2 months or find a new job that pays higher. The last resort is of course, give up my plans. I will try my best to achieve my plans.

In RP, many girls. :D I like sporty girls of course. I mean girls who like sports like basketball or martial arts. :D Or simply arts. But I am not interested in anyone la. Too busy to care. :P Plannings....still resuming..

Good Friday

2007-04-06T04:41:00.000-07:00

Thursday..
It was kinda busy in the morning. I was alone w/ my manager. My other colleague didn't come cos' got interview for sch. But whatever it is, I like it. At 5.30pm, I went for 30mins break cos' i didnt wanna cut my working hour.
Then reach home...muscles havent relax...I go force 50 pushups and 50 jumping squats.

Friday.
Reach work at 11am. In the middle my calf muscles expand like shit till it hurts. 4pm go home.

Good friday..nonsense. Just like any other ordinary days, just 20++ in a table.

Meow meow! ^__^....huh what? Julia?! Republic Poly!!

2007-04-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

I used to 'meow meow' a lot. Now the real meowmeow came to exist in my life.
She's Carolyn's friend...and also my ninja friend...and my gonna be my schoolmate soon + senior.

Yea, she's friendly, cute and cheerful.

I am going to RP. I can still feel the frustration due to my displeasing Olevel result. But on second thought, I have lots of friend there. Firstly, some of my schmates r going there. Then I hv friends over there, like my senior Carolyn. Furthermore, 2 of my colleague were from there too. I also hv friends from Sgedulab who r already there and goin there. Lastly, I hv my ninja senior there too.

Goin to new sch can be exciting huh?
Haha..what's best is that, I'm goin to be able to use internet! hahaha.

OKla...it's a small world after all. Hehehe...nice nice.

3 down, 5 more to go and Staffs Rally

2007-03-29T08:40:00.000-07:00

Let me revise my list of aims again.
1) 3-in-1 printer
2) Laptop
3) Digital Camera
4) Ninja-do
5) Vocal

So far I only got my printer, laptop and ninja-do. A digital camera is not really important right now. It is easy to get...just buy with one salary. But vocal and ninja-do is much tougher. I must plan again, especially since school is starting soon.

I haven't changed. I am still the old idiot who follows the saying "never say die". I am not sure whether it's good or bad but it's the way I pursue my dreams.

The truth is, I'm late for all these Ninja and Vocal lessons. Others started when they were young or at least in secondary school. I only started when I'm 17 and has graduated from secondary school. Pathetic.

Now I have new aims. Ninja make me want to be more muscular so I can be stronger. Knowing other guys have the talent to play guitar, I feel like I need to learn to play too. Lastly, I dont like to listen to pirated Michael Jackson songs...so I decided to buy his ultimate album. So I have 3 down, and I added 3 more.
Total: 3 down, 5 more to go.

On 28.
There was a staff rally. Only 5 staffs are selected and I'm one of them. I have to accept the fact that CLT is not like other outlets. We aren't sporty. We didn't have the same outfit to show that we're one whereas the other outlet staffs really took the effort to dress up. We aren't active also.

I received award personally from my manager. It's so call a gift to symbolise appreciation. Thanks is all I can say. I feel uncomfortable being treated that nice.
In fact, I even feel uncomfortable with nice customers. I only feel comfortable when I really make an effort to give them extra service and expecting nice treatment from them. Unfortunately, I never received nice treatment from them even after i gave my best service.

Okay...anyway. That's about now.

Good time

2007-03-20T09:16:00.000-07:00

haha..my previous entry, I didnt include my day on Saturday which was actually very memorable. :D

It's the first time I ever watch movie with friends. Well..the only spoiled thing is that one of us didn't get to go due to his soccer training. But I still had a good time.

They're my PH colleagues. :D
It's been such a long time since I went to a cinema. Partly it's cos' I'm too committed to my studies that i didn't give a damn abt good time. Secondly, I was saving my money for now. Lastly, I was not alerted abt any movies. lol.

Anyway, my leg is getting better. :D But I still cant do front kick.

And today, I received 2 compliments. I am sure that i gave them normal service but dunno why they compliment me anyway. I guess it's just to motivate me to be better. And I did give a good service (at least to me) to 3 tables (not the ones with compliments) after receiving those compliments. I recommended 2 tables the best way to get food at the cheapest price. Then the other one was being so professional...I was so fluent. :D
However, I received nothing from these tables. =.=" Not even tibs. B4 i received the compliments, I at least received some tibs from customer. Gee...I guess my normal service is better than my 'best' service.

I believe the compliments was not only due to my service but also my other colleagues. :D

Fun Day

2007-03-18T08:39:00.000-07:00

Well...what can I say?
This morning, I went to work and heard a man voice in high pitch at the back door. He was laughing. I was on my way to the gents and stopped when I heard that voice.
I was like...what the fuck? Ahhh fuck ar.
And then continue to go to gents.

I rejected the offer of being a cashier today. I hate being a cashier. But then, today so free. I go do cleaning. Somemore, I taught the new guy how to scrub the table cloth. And we scrubbed the whole table. :D

After the last table, it was already 4pm and it's time for me to go off duty and head to ninja-do. I don't know whether it was what happen in my workplace or in the ninja class itself that made my knee joint in pain. I think I overstretched when doing the exercises. And yea, I performed badly today.
The spa didn't go well. It's uncomfortable kicking with my right leg.

hehe...this is what I like.

Then after the class, I went to my workplace again....to see the busy place. HAHA.

Now I just need to recover my knee so that I can beat my next opponent.

Another complain

2007-03-10T20:17:00.000-08:00

Oh man...
My body aches. I'm trying to get back to doing 50 pushups everynight. Yesterday was busy in my outlet and I was the cashier. I wasn't thinking whether I'm tired or not. I was thinking abt my colleague doing all the front. I mean there's only 2 of us and the customers outnumbered us. Hais...I feel bad leaving my colleague in the front.

In times like these, I always fine myself doin less work. I wonder if I was really occupied. There's one moment when I get restless...and then decided to clear unwanted plates from the customers' table. I don't know why I dont seem to be called to take orders. Then one time, the 1 of 8 glasses broke...and it's really not the time for these things to happen. Furthermore, the pepsi was out. And I went to the back to get a new one.

The outlet is getting more busy. I wonder why. 3 days straight, damn busy. Well...not REALLY busy. It's just that we have 2 ppl outside. I think I really need to get a non-slippery shoes. Well, not to actually prevent myself from falling but instead to increase my speed. With slippery shoes, it's hard to move fast but fun to slide and moonwalk :D.

On Thursday, I was the cashier again. Lucky got an experience colleague who was from JP work on that day. She, me and a newcomer. I'm not only busy with cashier and bar but also takeaways. By 8pm, the JP colleague hv to go liao. I understand la. So left me and a new guy. He keyed in wrongly, and made the customer hv to pay more. That's not all. His food was served late. My attachment manager told him that he will give him a discount(well that's what i heard from the customer).

****Though I thought I saw him(mgr) writing 10% discount on a docket, but I wasn't informed abt it. [I was cashing out that time. So I need to focus on my cash...dont want shortage]****

The docket was not in the slot for that table. So i reprinted a new one. So he paid for the price w/o discount and then pay more(cos' of the wrong keyed in by the newperson). He came back to me abt it.
I informed my RGM abt the wrong cash out. He told me to refund him and i did.
Too many things went wrong. I just couldn't concentrate.

When the tide started to mellow down, I finally hv time to check whether my customers hv received their food by checking the dockets. And then, I found the lost docket that the customer was talking abt. DAMN it, it was wrongly slotted. Hais...even though it was my attachment manager who slotted in, I believe it's still my fault for not checking properly.
It's also my fault for not checking abt the add-on prices at the docket. Haiss...

That's my mistake I supposed.
> Didn't check orders
> Didn't check dockets
> Didn't pay attention
> Sorethroat n sick still never say die. :D

Think must learn BOH. So whenever sick, go behind :P

2 is down...3 more to go

2007-03-07T05:01:00.000-08:00

Hehe! I've already got my 3-in-1 printer. And today, I went to register for Ninja-do. :D

Also, today i received my 5th pay. I decided to treat my relatives n mom pizzas. :D

haiss...I hv to keep on working. I need a new plan. Seems like I can't live without planning. I need more full shifts. I hope when I get to poly, I will hv MORE than enough money to buy a laptop. This is vital cos' I need to use my salary for ninja-do fee and continue to save.

While I still got time...

The Mystery

2007-03-06T08:09:00.000-08:00

It's a mystery how customers reponded to me today.
They treated me much more nicely than usual. I even received tips.
One bad thing I know is that my voice got softer. Got throat infection again.

I've neglected my blog again. hmm...guess I hv to continue tomorrow...I dont feel so good...sick.

2007-02-23T07:59:00.000-08:00

Hi, I've not been blogging for such a long time. I was saddened by the animation cos' my childhood hero(a cartoon character died) cos' of an illness which cure is not known. Abt 8 years ago, he was so fast, alert, strong and cool. But when I went to watch the reflection director's cut, he was so weak and can't even catch a cooked fish thrown to him. But he always hv that smile.

Anyway, after the show, i conclude that no life will live happily ever...
Every one will eventually die. The only thing that they leave behind is their child/children which proves that they were once existed.

Working life..
I learn a lot. Abt the difficulties in work, i find myself difficult to be efficient. Very slow, did little work...
Physically, I m not tired. But when i get frustrated, i become mentally tired and that's when i stop smiling or just be quiet.
I also learn not to bad-mouthing others...it makes me feel bad abt myself too for giving others a bad impression abt the ppl i bad mouth.

I think I wanna change the way i blog. Reduce all these learning new stuffs n feelings and hv more of my everyday life story. Hmm...maybe next time :D Lazy now. Good nite.

12-15 Feb

2007-02-14T17:49:00.000-08:00

12 FEB - The Drama
I spilt water to the customer. One of the glass drop on the floor. That was the second time I drop something...to THIS same customer. Her daughter was quite chio..but very quiet like robot. The first time I dropped a tobasco sos, and it broke also. Her daughter just sit there and stare. Now I drop a drink and broke a glass...guess what she did? Same. Just sit there and watch...=.=" I told them to change seat. The mother was weird too. I decided to give them discount, yet the mother say if it is deducted from my salary she don't want. Then even worse...after all I did, she give me tips before she left the restaurant. Weird customer...but chio daughter. lol.

13 FEB - The uncelebrated birthday
As usual, birthday...nothing special to do. So I went to work. At first I went to Clementi Woods to take the retain form. Then I was told that there's a second retainment after the posting of school result. So I guess I can decide to retain after 3 weeks. And then I wanna go Ngee Ann. But dunno how. Ask my colleagues they say take 184, 154. Okla...and then saw my colleague in the FOH alone. And I'm too lazy to go Ngee Ann by then. So I start work early. Birthday..just like any other ordinary day. But my mom is still the best present.

14 FEB - Valentines Day...:(
So many customers. And the table system was also changed and it made the situation haywire. Cos' I keyed in wrong tables =.="
Full house...and got ppl wanna go in. =.=" So scary. But with many staffs, things actually got into control..except for food serving and the different table system that make things complicated. =.=" Some customers are like fark. Join tables without telling us...and so I got confused. Some customers r considerate. One of my customer told me to relax. I guess my actions really show that I am stressed. lol. Customers kept calling me. It is fun to hv this much customers and also that much staffs. :D
The end of the day, I share one of the heart brownie with the other FOH staffs. Actually, I was too lazy to take it for myself but i did. Then I feel bad for not sharing it with the BOH(back of house) staffs. More like I'm too lazy to take for them. =.="
Manager let us hv two brownie shared among us. Then I took one only. Hais...bad me.

15 FEB - Whatever defence day
I reflected abt what i did last nite. I feel bad abt not taking the brownie cake for the BOH. And I find myself getting more 'action'/proud though I don't mean to do so. I mean the way I speak is like that...my tone la. And i find myself very selfish for not taking the brownie for the BOH and many more. It's not that I am selfish or proud, it's just that my actions(at least to me), make me look as tho i am. I guess I must learn to say things in a wiser manner and try to offer others stuffs..things like dat.
And this morning, i was disturb by my uncle loud music...damn...so irritating.

Like Ms Tan say..

2007-02-08T08:17:00.000-08:00

I guess it's true. My EL is deteriorating.
Just like the expert say...u must continue to read no matter what. It seems like my full shifts r taking away my reading time. I discovered that my sentence structure is getting worse as days pass by.
Furthermore, tml is the result. My only concern is TIME. I dun think i hv much time to repeat. Already that I'm late for my personal development...I can't afford to hold it back anymore. If bad news were to outcome, then I guess a re-planning moment is needed.
I really wanna read.

One Down

2007-02-05T07:52:00.000-08:00

Result is going to be released soon.
I find myself in a difficult situation. I will choose to repeat if my results sucks.
On the other hand, how I can improve them if I happen to repeat? I will continue to work. I will have to divide my time...

Anyway, I've already got the printing machine. I decided to get a cheaper one and it is without photo-printing feature. I guess I don't really need photo printing machine. So I just bought an HP-printer (scan, copy, print) 3-in-1.

I've using my savings to buy stuffs. Now I still left abt $10-15. I will only withdraw my salary when I get my third pay.

Mr. Cool

2007-02-03T06:58:00.001-08:00

http://kevan.org/johari?name=mrcool
Do survey for me. :D

Sometimes I wonder. Why do I call myself cool?
I havent done anything to show that I'm cool. I only know tat i can do smth cool...but only I know, others would just think i'm crazy. Maybe it's true. Whatever. This is call mind-programming.

I am getting more vain. Well...not really. I just need to earn some respect or at least get treated in good way. I wanna build some muscles. I need someone to introduce to me a gym near my place.

I also find myself...unable to control my 'fun' mode. I can't control my strength. I can hurt ppl easily.

I find my baby photo so funny...cute oso. lol. HAHAHA...
I see many differences...I dont look the same.

Mr. Cool

2007-02-03T06:58:00.000-08:00

Two Weeks of fever

2007-01-27T21:40:00.000-08:00

Yo blog.
2 weeks ago I was having a high fever. I was really tired that I actually couldn't stand. The last time I had a very bad fever was during the NCC orientation. I had to lie down...can't even sit. To make the situation even worse, it was raining. Thus, from that day onwards whenever I hv fever, I will start to shiver.

I had fever and has endured for almost 2-3 weeks. Yesterday I started to feel it again. There were so much customers and it's quite busy. To make it even worse, I didn't have break and hv to extend my working hours from 10 to 12. So i've been standing for 12 hours. It's torturing but I like it. I mean it's an experience that I can be proud of. This morning I went to see doc and was told i'm having a high fever. He offer me an MC, I don't want.

Good thing that there's 2 senior workers in the front house. By 8pm, I was so weak liao. But thanks to the seniors I can relax a bit.

I'm always OK. :D

Sunday - a month of working in Pizza Hut

2007-01-23T04:33:00.000-08:00

21st Jan. Sunday.
Well..it seems that I've been working for a month liao. I've already get my salary but I'm still using my savings.

On 21st January, a Sunday, I was working from 10am to 10pm. Just another day of 12 hours. It's so cool and fun. My managers are all friendly but I don't know why some colleagues r just not happy with some of my managers. Most of the colleagues I know is at the Front Of House(FOH). I am the only guy in the Front...the rest of them are girls. FOH workers are service staffs. I don't really feel bad being the only guy. I find the younger girls cute and sometimes I treat them like my own younger sister. The girls of my age group, i find them either disgusting or neutral. The older ones are like big sisters to me =.=".

Customers. I've encountered many different customers. It's so fun. Some are even my friends. Customers complain a lot. Usually, no one is not at fault cos' sometimes the machines in the kitchen have problems and we in the Front Of House(FOH) get scolded from the customers. Personally, I would say that the customers were being unreasonable but at the same time, they cant be blame cos' they do not know how the system works.

Dealing with unhappy customer is just one of the learning experience. I also learn to speak more...even though it is unnecessary. Another thing is I get more involved with the outlet. I learn to be a cashier, bartender, service staff and a cleaner. lol. Teamwork is vital.
There're still so much to learn.

And the last day of my first month, was completed by a compliment from a customer. :D

I want to have a partner

2007-01-16T08:18:00.000-08:00

I just want to have someone to work with me together to achieve individual/same goals. I feel so solo. 1-man-action. I want to have someone to talk to about my goals and what I want to achieve.

MOst of my peers are more interested in relationships. It's hard to find someone who wants to achieve something else besides than B-G-relationships. It's not that I dun care abt BGR stuffs...it's just that most girls hv good first impressions but the mindset is not good (to me).

It's so boring being so different from my peer group. Looking at myself...I am not stylish. I am not good looking...maybe that's why I dun hv partner? I am short...I dun hv any talent...but I have an ability which I think it's my speciality.

Having a partner doesnt mean having a stead. It's just to have someone to share the same interest. Someone to chill out with. Someone to communicate with. Hmm...

Anyway...today at work was a bit messy. My sore throat turns the kitchen upside down for a moment. Good thing is that...I'm getting stronger...i can carry stray of bowls n glasses with my palm. My balancing was cool too. :D
Tomorrow is going to be slack...cos' I'll be working for 4 hours. It's 6/7 hours lesser than my usually working hours. I dun really like it actually. I want at least 6 hours. haha...i need to exercise and be stronger.

Chalet and the returning to work..till now

2007-01-15T08:08:00.000-08:00

9jan> Chalet...we met at MRT. Go there. Hv fun. Ate half cooked chicken wings...then go home.

10jan> slack

11> work...I had fever..too weak to stand up, but i did. It's full shift. Most of my colleague thought I am tired cos' of every day full shift from 11am-10pm. But it was my fever that held me back. Then i was really forcing myself...it's the first time I really need a break. Took 2 panadol pills during break...and then feel orite (a lil). Soon back to be weak...force myself. 10pm still got customer...I am not suppose to rest, but i need to. :D...go home took 2 panadols n sleep.

12> Still feverish..but never say die and still go work full shift. Weak....at least able to stand longer than the day b4. Then i suggest to my colleague who is also sick (and dun like to work anyway), to let me replace her the next day.

13> I was supposed to work night shift..but I volunteer to replace my colleague...who hv to do morning shift...so I do full shift again! :D So happy. By this date, I was coughing...a bit...but throat hurts. Sometimes got blood in my phelms.

14> Feeling much more better..tho still throat hurt. It's fun working as a team...but when team members r tired at 8 close to 9pm...it sucks. I understand tat my colleagues in FOH r all girls..so maybe i'm just stronger n can last longer than them. But it still suxs...cos' all they do is chat among themselves n i work alone.

15> I become cashier...man...there's only 2 worker in the front house. And I am new to cashier stuffs...and my colleague is like talk so much n stick to the kitchen areas...I felt angry..but i kept my cool. I told her i got sore throat n hard for me to communicate with customers. Then when goin home that time..i was saved by my cousin who was doin the cashier report for me...I told my colleague abt her performance. I'm happy tat i can settle it peacefully. :)

Later...I dunno wad to expect...i dun wanna be cashier...just wanna take dishes away from customer...cos' i sore throat...and getting voiceless

9am to 5pm CHAMPS course

2007-01-06T20:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I went for CHAMPS course. It's a pizza hut course.
It was a very good learning experience. Most of the people there are, however, not very passionate about it. Some just want to play a fool. Whereas some just don't even bother.

But I don't know why was I so into it.
C - Cleanliness
H - Hospitality
A -
M -
P -
S - Speed

I heard that one of the worker in that course, does not believe in teamwork. He said the leader is bad. And things always go haywire because some people want this and that.
I didnt get a chance to talk about teamwork to deliver a message to the class or that guy.

Well...this is my respond. To me, teamwork is all about cooperation. If there's no cooperation, there wont be teamwork. He said that the leader is not good and bossy. Ok, I guess his leader has a bad leadership. Being in NCC, being a leader, you must always be the problem-solver. A leader must have the right attitude. Being bossy will result in less respect from the members. Leaders must be caring and concern. The reason why there is no cooperation in his group is because the leader is so bossy to the extend that at least one of the members decided not to cooperate resulting the whole team to become haywire. Thus, no teamwork.

And then, in one part of the course, I have to do a presentation in being in a customer's shoes. And guess what, I improvised. I also used the public speaking skills I learnt in sec3. :P I felt so cool after my speech...cos' there were so many claps. :D

L - Listen
A - Apologise
S -
T - Thank

I did apply it when i got to work at 6pm. Wahh...a customer(A) kept saying the soup is not hot. And one of my colleague went to make it warmer. Still say not hot. So she want to see my manager. My manager settle it. :D Then after that, I went to the customer despite feeling a little irritated. I said, "Thanks for telling us our mistake"
She went on talking about she own 3 restaurants. And so on. And say please give pizza hut a good name. Well...something that I learnt from my course i put into practice. Practice...that's what I'm proud of myself.
And then another customer(B) want the air-con off. I said there's another customer(A) which would like to have the air-con on. So B want me to ask A whether if it's ok to turn it off. I say, "sure". Yep... A agree. Then when A wanna leaves, I go further by offering them some plain water. :D
For the B, they want another take away. So yea, I ask my manager to settle.

:D Things went so well...i was happy with my service. lol.
Then at night, what the fuck...i was told to fold boxes...i ended up with scratches on my hands...and a bleed. I say i go home...scared blood drip more. :D Actually..just an excuse to ciao. Cos' it's close to 12am.

Boring

2007-01-01T06:38:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was very rushing...today...very slacky.
Yet..a mistake can cause problem
lol
It was one of my colleague's. She took order but did not keyed in the 'Lasagne'. So the customer sat there for such a long time...then he called me. At that time, my colleague was taking her break. (man...she's gone at the wrong time). So wad happen was tat the customer, trying to sound calm, ask me, "where's my lasagne? My pizza is goin to finish but my lasagne haven't been served."
I asked him whether he already ordered(just to confirm). Then i went to check the computer. It's not there. I guess it's my colleague's fault then. It's ok..everyone makes mistake. So i keyed in and explain to him. He's not local i guess...he's accent and speech is differ from local. I still tried to explain anyway.
But the customer make me feel..a bit annoyed and also a lil bit amused. He was being sarcastic. He asked, "My pizzai is finishing but my lasagne haven come...is it because there's a lot of customer?" (there's no customer in fact...tat's why boring)

I was like...arghh..really cannot say anything, but i still say tat my colleague forgot to key in the lasagne. And he still ask me the qn and being sarcastic. =.=" I guess i cant get angry wif anyone nor can i feel guilty. The customer dunno how the system work...and I'm just like being asked a dumb. And my so call tat senior colleague can't always be perfect.

So yea..while waiting i saw that colleague of mine coming back to the workplace...and i confirmed wif her whether she did that mistake anot.
Me: (name), u didnt key in the lasagne for the customer?
She: *give a panic face* (tat tells me all. lol)
Me: ok nevermind.

HAHA...

I must learn from my mistake...

2006-12-31T08:39:00.001-08:00

Yesterday was a bad day. Today sounds worse but i like it.
A customer left Pizza Hut without paying the bills. I am to be blamed. When they were dining in the restaurant, I overheard some unpleasant conversation...one of the phrases is "I'll just beat". I should have trusted my thought. I actually sensed danger and i feel like they're going to make a crime. Then I felt as though I'm being so paranoid. Why should i be suspicious? They will pay...*doubt*.
And so, I really didnt take it seriously. I hold them outside the lift. Then ask. Then I went inside restaurant to see customers. I feel uneasy...still i didnt take seriously. =.= And i saw him near the ATM machine. (cos' he say he is taking money...then I decided not to let him see me...cos I dun wanna b so busy-body as if they're not gonna pay). Yea...my mistake for not being busybody. =.="
I decided to use my hp cam but I'm still not use to it. So I can't really spy...and i really take it easy.
I feel bad..hais...I'm seen quite hopeless, i guess.

This will be my reason to be a 'spy' again. Whenever i sense smth weird, I will hv to wear my spy personality. I know i sound kinda childish, it's cos' the last time i use this 'spy' personality was when i was in primary sch. So 'spy' derived from my kid's brain lor.

With this, I feel tat i hv a better reason to be learning martial art to protect my workplace n colleague from this kinda thing again. Remember...one of the guys said, "I'll just beat.."
What i feel is tat..when 1 of us(workers) try to stop him, he will beat him.

I didnt tell this to my colleague. Cos' I know no one will believe me if i say i sensed tat 'danger'. Even if they believe, they might blame me. And worse still, they might think i'm mad. But I'm telling u guys here...cos' i'm just sharing my day.

Another thing is one customer...he kept looking at my colleague (a girl). He's quite suspicious and he sat there so long. =.= I thought he is the anonymous customer. Then I think tat smth is not right...at 10:??, I went to look for the 'escaped' customer, he was under the block too. Then when i go home, i still saw him. I'm trying to warn my colleagues...by asking my cousin for one of their numbers. But no response. I guess, i shouldnt care....gee...i'm taking it lightly again..cos' i dun wanna look stupid. He might be one of their bf? I ask of my colleague...she dunno him. Hmm..up till now, no reply from my cousin. Nevermind, at least I was trying to warn her...but couldnt.

Anyway...it's smth i like.. it's like my adventure has just begun.

Not good...

2006-12-30T08:09:00.000-08:00

Hais...still sick.
I was lost just now...to reach ECP.
Then in pizza...I caught up a lot.
In the schedule list...I seems to be useless...got "sack" in the remark.
Hais..=.="

Stupid day...smart me =.="

Work

2006-12-25T07:44:00.000-08:00

Sick and tired of my life

2006-12-14T06:21:00.000-08:00

I've been trying to be positive and lie to myself on the good points. Whatever it is, the fact that my life sucks is something I am unable to change. I wanna quit. I wanna hv my own freedom. I just wanna be myself.

Anyway...I played very hard on Tuesday night in my uncle's house. We played PS2 for abt 12-16 hours? We played from tuesday night till afternoon at 12pm on wednesday. Then we slept till 6pm in the evening...almost at the same time. lol. I wanted to lend his weights...but he has to leave for work already. So I hold on to my demand. Next time can lar.

Then I went to courts to buy a LCD monitor. NEC brand. $100. =.=" cheap huh? I set up myself at home. Something come to my mind. The monitor takes little space. :D Then I feel that maybe I should tidy my stuffs. I wanna make things look neat.

And today, I got myself an hp. 6280. Got it for free. lol. Then I bought the casing...what do u call that? Next, I went to BATA, bought a pair of shoes. I was thinking of buying a black one but I decided to change taste. I chose something else. Even my hp is black. I am really turning back into goth. That's why I wanna change. Furthermore...today I wore ALL black. Shoes black, wrist watch black, shirt black, bottoms black, bag black.....EVEN my UNDERGARMENT is black!! LOL!! I saw a girl wearing a fuchsia top and green skirt, looking so cute in those. haha. Eh eh..i only say cute ok. She's with another girl wearing kinda formal tops and longer skirt. Looks nice too.

Damn it off

2006-12-11T04:05:00.000-08:00

Yo blog!
On Sunday, I accompanied my mom to see taufik. She bought his album and wanna see him in IMM. I am not really his fan tho...but still went there. Then in the crowd, I was like the only male(except for my nephew)...and the rest were mostly girls. -.-''
I thought guys should like him too...but it seems that he's more popular among the girls. =.="
Anyway..my mom was in front while i stayed in the middle...and still, I am surrounded by the fans. *sigh*..I was tired of standing for nothing..hear Taufik's singing...and his gesture. Kinda awkward the way he did it. He composed most of the songs in his second album. And he is a sentimental person. I must admit...his songs r not bad..got the originality. Every song he compose....something is always similar...i just couldn't figure it out. Like MJ...smth is always similar in his songs, seems like different ppl has that 'something' that is like similar.

Then another thing was....the fans. Singapore Idol huh? More like malay idol. I hardly see any chinese come to see him. I guess I really lose at thinking that the reason sg idol is really singaporean's idol. Ppl still go for their own race idol. =.="
3-dash-1...all from my Jintai Sec....that band consists of a malay, chinese n tamil. That's what I call cool. I really hope I can hv my own band...with mixed races. And hope that all of us know vocal. And guess what? We will make English, Chinese, Malay and tamil songs. :D I guess that's my new ....aim? I dunno...hope I can learn vocal and find a tamil and chinese vocalist and then form a band. :D

Ok...anything is JOB.
On Sunday night, I called my cousin who is working in a Pizza Hut outlet in clementi. I want her to recommend me a job in that outlet la. I was like damn sian liao...wanna wait for better paid job? Forget it...it's better to hv a $3.5/hour rather than $0/per hour. Today, I went to the outlet and hv an orientation of what pizza hhut is like. There's a lot to learn. Haha...i hope i will overcome my phobia of talking to strangers. =.=" The manager feels that I am soft-spoken, so he make me do service job instead of being in the kitchen. Anyway, this is really my backup. I hv another one...which pw intro to me...Fila. But...hais...i just didnt think through. A lot of ppl hv bourgeois mentality. They would rather hv better paid job. I'm just someone who lives in a like lower-class group. I feel kinda intimidated by the bourgeois' comments. But again...like I always say: I won't die THAT easily.

okok...now...i hv a job.
I hv decided to put away my desire of having the latest hp when i work. I went to singtel shop just now to accompany my mom to upgrade her hp. I am quite satisfy to see her happy with her new hp. I know she wouldnt upgrade if I did not come with her. I use my $30 + her $20 to buy a 1gb memory card. I know she likes Taufik...so I guess I shall put Taufik's songs in her phone...so she can listen.
ok...so I hv to priortise the important things.

1) $400 (in case I hv to retake)
2) Get FREE hp
3) Buy an All-in-one Lexmarks (printer, scanner, copy, photo) (save $200)
4) Laptop (save $2000)
5) Change to wireless internet
6) Buy a cheap digital camera (abt $200?)
7) Upgrade interests(vocal, ninjitsu) and clothings)
8) The rest..

Money Face

2006-12-06T00:52:00.000-08:00

I'm damn bored.
I've been trying to find a job.
unproductively.

Anyway, my N.E is over. :)
Now, I will have to find a way to survive.
I believe not many of my friends know that I've been saving money in my secondary school days. My primary intention was to buy a laptop. But due to some days of which I didn't get allowance and also due to the fact that I used some savings to eat when I study in CC, I'm not able to save enough money to buy. In addition, currently, I need to use money to pay for my transports when hunting for jobs.

If this savings is used up, I will have difficulties in find jobs. Not only that, even my mom n uncle often lend money from me. Thus, everyone under one roof will face difficulties.

On Monday, I went to buy eggs, bread and milk. haha...it was for anyone in the house to consume. I feel stupid. Why am I doing all this? I don't know what am I talking either. I just feel that it's not worth it. My uncle never saves and instead keep buying junks to decorate his Hi-Fi. Then he lend money from me...I wonder where did his salary go to. I know I shouldn't be saying this in my blog, but I just wanna voice it out. I will delete certain paragraph in this post later. I hate to be seen by him that it's good that I have a job. I mean it's like duhz! I hate the idea that he will think i can provide financial help for him too! My aim is to save $5000 for myself! I need to buy laptop, HP, my be-myself-clothings and develop my interest(Vocal and ninjitsu etc). I hope to get that $5000 from working and maybe combined with my savings.

Currently, I'm trying to not only find jobs but to also enter competition hoping to win some cash prizes and maybe Ipod or video games....haha...I want some games too. But I guess it's not important for now. Wait till got extra money.

Indo

2006-12-03T00:31:00.000-08:00

Yo Mr. Blog!

Went to Indo..bought many many chewing gums :D First day, i olady chew chew hcew. Second day, chew chew chew :3. This morning also chew chew chew...NOW, i'm also chewing chewing chewing :3. I took some back to sg XD!

okok...besides than my chewing gums :3, i actually had quite an enjoyable time. It's not really slacking holiday or FULL of FUN. But more of learning experiences. That's what that is fun. It was actually one of my relatives' wedding. The wedding of a malay and a 'jawa'. Thus, some things are new. Eg. the languages they use.
I realised how matured the kids there were. I mean they were all living in a kampung house, so the kids hv a world that of different from most of us in sg. Still like the old fashion style, they extract water from well. The maturity of the kids is so cool that i think a 5-6 yr old kid, did road marshalling. And kids of less than 12yrs old is carrying the bamboo stick of 'bunga raya' from place to place. It reminds me of a show...of an african kid. He experienced the painful feeling when a loved one dies. He live in poverty...but mature.

In the hotel, besides than doin my chewing job, I also did some drawings and readings. I was with my cousin on the bed. I was drawing but he was so boliao and wanna play wrestling with me..=.=". He jump and land on me several times. x__x
I cant draw...so I just switch on the TV...and watched with him. Then I draw again but instead of drawing on the bed, I draw on a table. :D....till the others came back lor. The next day..after the wedding ceremony preparations which took almost 10 hours, my cousin n i return to our hotel again while some of the others go shopping. i decided to draw. Again, he can't stop his nonsense. Too tired to layan him. haha...I kept telling him that he's sleepy and tired and he wanna sleep. He counter by saying 'no I'm not'. lol...I dunno how many times i repeated that and he started to say different thing liao...he's confused, i guess. Finally, I told him "I'll leave u now and in five minutes, u will fall asleep". :P
And he really fall asleep. HAHAHAHAA...peace at last. Well..maybe it's due to the 10 hours of non-stop moving that helped me in my hynoptise. Actually, the reason why i wanna draw is cos' I find my drawing skills sux after years of not developing it. It may look 'nice' to small kids but not to my peers or secondary sch brainers. Yea...I dunno why i wanna improve my drawings tho...must hv been inspired by japanese animation.

Then I found out that one of relatives is a reflexologist with some gifted talent. He's quite cool. He read my palm. He say many things abt me...like i can go poly and he even named the two poly that i would choose amongst the other many and they are ngee ann and singapore polytechnic. He can even tell that i want SP more than ngee ann. He says my breathing is not good. I've always told my mom that my breathing is not good and it interfere my speaking ability but she didnt wanna accept it till then. I must still say it's not so accurate la. But the ideas r there. He told me not to always believe this palm reading. =.=" True..shouldn't believe but what is true, I'll just accept it. He can even tell that I hv migraine and offered reflexology. I've heard many things abt reflexology...and so I just wanna try. :D
That night, he did it on me...it hurts a lot. haha...he is quite fun la. He has some special abilities for the reflex thing. However, he loves to cook. =.="

My trip back to sg was quite cool. I hv to carry a lot of loads. My mom bought a lot of foodstuffs...and they can be really heavy...=.='' I guess I am ready to work as a logistic liao cos' I can carry quite heavy stuffs.
OH well...too long to say it all. End here.

Job Hunting

2006-11-29T05:30:00.000-08:00

Yo mr. bloggy

Today went for job hunting with the other 4E1 hunters. Everywhere we go, we got same stupid form...asking us to fill in the stupid particulars and wait for phonecalls. :D

ok...nevermind that.
Then we go harbour front...dunno for what. Go there, see see then go see ships and walk walk...and home. lol.

Errr...what can I write here?

2006-11-26T05:51:00.000-08:00

Yo Mr. Bloggy

On Friday...I successfully cooked myself half-boiled eggs :P
So happy.. LOL...
Then Saturday...i make 2 more...then I felt YUCK. 5 egg yolk in 2 days.
And it taste bad the second day. lol...

Anyway...i've been killing my time studying n hunting for jobs.

Path to nowhere

2006-11-21T03:04:00.000-08:00

Yesterday
I wonder why do I hv headahce. =___='' I realised I hv quite a lot to study...and my National Exam is just next week. :( I tried to read...but I can't...headache.
I kind of admire others who r liberated...and can look for jobs.

This morning went for jog. =___=...realised that I really lack of stamina. I can jog for abt 3km only. Then the rest I walk.

I did 50 pushups =___='' Not good.

Today
Morning went to sch to pass cy the physics notes to scan.
Then that little kitty was late. I saw jasden...we talk for a while.
Then mark...we joined forces to kill mosquitoes. He ask me to accompany him eat...i agree...halfway, his Jia Yang come liao. I back out. I lazy to go sit there. haha...so I ciao...wanted to go sch to wish them 'have a safe trip' but decided it is unnecessary. So I ciao by jogging home. Must exercise la. lol...
But i lazy...i run for abt600m then walk xD

Go home...study then sing then play.
At 8:30, I ask my mom to play badminton with me. It's just that I think she needs to exercise (to be healthy). So yea, I ask her to play lor.
Then it seems that my PS helps to strengthen bond between my mom n my uncle =___=''

Now I am here...dunno do wad..bored. Thirst...

Over...not yet

2006-11-18T02:16:00.000-08:00

Like I say, Olvl is just one of my obstacles. Now I'll hv to go through my religious national examinations. =___=''
The problem is that...I've not touched anything.
I guess I will use the same approach as my Olvl. Except that...i need memorise more. +__+
I will reveal my other obstacles after this national exams.

OK, anyway...about Olvl.
My everyday routine during the Olvl periods n prelims, was to CC almost everyday...home, record voice notes. I hv my own schedule of wad to study and stuffs. It's tiring alright...but who cares? Other students in other sch heck abt tired n just wanna strive. So why should i complain?
Haha..okla. I admire the students from other schs. They dont care abt the cost of doin well for Olvl. (cost = tiredness, stress, place to study[quiet n peaceful])
Now about the papers..

ENGLISH
This was what I wrote after the paper(below)
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Before the papers, I was always thinking of getting A1. While waiting for the right time to enter the exam hall, I did my last revision of formats. I ate some biscuits. It was an unusual morning for me. I have chosen not to join my friends and instead, I went to the bench behind the canteen to do my revision.
As I walk to the exam hall, my heart was beating unusually fast. Undoubtedly, I was tensed. Every step i took, I kept telling myself this is the subject that will decide my fate and I must not repeat the mistakes that I've commited during prelims. By the time I got to my seat, I realised that my mind was filled with only my aims and realms of fancy. I wasn't ready to think of anything to write. I tried to get hold of myself.
When the paper starts, anxiety overwhelmed me. I was confused. "Dreams...?", "What can secondary schools do to ensure the health, well-beings and safety of their students?"...huh? "What can I write?"
I heard voices of my English teacher in my head. "Write what you think you can write.", "No, do not write this kind of question...", "No..if you can't write this kind of question, don't writeeee..."
Damn.
Those voices were killing me. I didn't know which question is suitable for my standard of English. It seems that none of them is for me. I was in dilemma. "Dreams or school?" I kept telling myself. "what can I write for dreams?" "what can I write for school?" "I must write simple stuffs..." "shit..."
I listed down the points for both questions. Yet, I think didn't know what to write. I tried writing for 'dreams', but I didn't know how to begin. It was the same for the other question. "why the hell am I experiencing writers block at this point of time?"
Even in that state of confusion, I continued writing...for both questions. I didn't know what I was writing. I couldn't think of the words to use. Whenever I got stuck thinking for the words, I answer the other question. By 8:30, I finally have decided fully to write about the school.
Knowing that my first page was full of nonsense, I tried to improve on my points in the second page. I was already demoralised. I wrote my composition with no pride. I know I lack of points. But I must distribute my time for section B. So I took no effort to elaborate fully.
By the time I start writing for section B, I was left with only 25 minutes. I've never written a report before. So I didn't know. I was further demoralised by that fact. I finished the whole thing at the nick of time.

I left the examination hall, feeling low of myself. Low spirited. I know what my fate is now...

retain.

With that in mind, I didn't care much for paper 2. Anyway, i always fail for paper 2. Paper 1 was already over and I did badly.
Therefore, I think I'll just use these remaining days to help my friends. I'm already doom. Everyone is going to blame me for this failure...hais...
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Amaths
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Well...they're actually easy, but i lack practice. I dunno matrices for paper 1. Then Paper 2, Either OR....blur. I cant see the isoceles triangle having a midpt x same value as point C. Paper 1, also dunno polymonial....i think lost at least 30 for both paper. Haven count careless mistake. =___=''
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Chemistry
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Dunno why the hell C.R.O is there(C.R.O is physics). Then...so many thinking qns and made me confuse. Like got new format. Mdm Fong told me...ppl in other sch oso say diff...yea..but some ppl say it's easy..arghh..
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Physics
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It would be an easier paper if I only read up the txtbook.
It's easy...so many theoretical qns. Which I dunnno how to put in words. So due to my weak language, i dunno how to explain properly. =___=''
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Emaths
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Very simple. Am i too contented or wad? Must not be so confident...
Since it's easy..the moderation would be high.
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Comb Humanities
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History, quite easy for structured...also not sure abt answer...cos' i use opinion and reason my way out.
I can't remember the effect of the casualties cost n losses. So i tried to reason out my way...by saying that the casualties led to the lost of lives of loved ones n friends and decrease in population. LON wanna stop this. Then costs of which britain n france hv taken resulted in their economic breakdown till hv to borrow from US. And lost of buildings n factories further worsen the economy.

Why i say the world war 1 cos' economic crisis...well cos' Jap economy problems was due to the wall street crash(wad the heck is that?) after world war 1. So i just roughly thought it must be due to the world war 1 that led to the great depression causing Japan's economy breakdown.

Social studies, alright la...soso.. I didnt finish 1 structured, and 2 source based whereas for history...i didnt finish 1 1 source-based. :D
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Blank Thinking

2006-10-28T08:06:00.000-07:00

I've save a draft of my graduation entry. I decided not to post now.
Anyway, these few days...i have doubts with my SS and history. I've been doing about 3 subjects everyday. It's part of my plan. But I forgot to include my maths. I've been reading SS n History, doing EL summary and sciences(chem n physics). My physics...I feel more confident than my chemistry. It has always been that way, even for prelim. But i ended up getting A2 for chemistry and B4 for physics. And Amaths, I've been doing it almost everyday from July to September. It's still not perfect.

I dunno what am I feeling now. I'm more like gay nowadays...being so concern and helping helping. I dont think i have any reason for doing so. Sometimes I just want to sleep. I just want my chemistry practical to end. I need time for SS. 2 weeks later is SS. I need to revise my Emaths and EL. I need to revise my Amaths and History. It's kinda fun..but a lil threatening. EL...I really need to make it. I need to get A for physics and Chem and maths. I really think so. I want A for comb human too. EL...i want a 3. Ms Tan told me once...I could stand a chance to get a 3. I hope she really mean it. I'm not planning to go JC, i'm just trying to show that it is never too much to handle.

Me and my proving shits. I should stop it. But I'm just too competitive. hais... and then, I realised something. I must always aim to complete more task than what i arrange for myself. I do more that way. :D
Hais...how I wish I am someone else who is sooooo normal like others.

It's not worth it

2006-10-18T05:23:00.000-07:00

Yo sup blog!?
Wahh...today is really unproductive.
I did more physics than maths. I did a lil Amaths...and lil physics...and sleep and dream. haha. I was slacking. I did the physics june paper. Looks easy but i got 32/40(including the out of syllabus). Damn it. Then I did Cresent girls. Wow...i thought it's gonna be hard...i guess paper 2 should be hard la. I did paper 1, it was FUN...really my type of game. It requires thinking only.

I did some Amaths..those weak ones. I did some corrections for paper 2.
That's all. I stay the for 8 hours for only that. HAHAHA...the rest, i sleep or dream. Oh ya...i did some planning for tomorrow. Hari Raya..i plan to tidy my books...and stuffs. Then I need to prepare for NCC uniform and then study again.

Wonder if it is worth it...

2006-10-17T10:15:00.000-07:00

Today,

I went to school to see Ms Tan for my comprehension summary. It was bad although I just passed. At first, I called Mdm Fong regarding my testimonial, she said she found it. Oh well, i guess what i asked from Emily last night was for myself to read.
It's okay. Then I went to CC to study. I read and tried to understand my Chemistry 'mindmaps'. It was quite fun. I don't usually take the time to read and understand. Usually, I would just skim through them.

Next, I read social studies book 3, on Merger and Separation. It was really boring...i fall asleep several times. Partly, it is because lack of sleep la. DUHs! Almost everyone has it. Then I read Collins GCSE physics keypoints and write down some notes. Well, it's not really meant for me...but for someone I care. Yet I think I'm gonna photocopy more than a set...to give away to anyone who might need it. I added in something that I'm learnt and did some research on the topic. I hope it's useful. I take down only of those stuffs that I think that someone might be weak at.

Then I read the stupid history, chapter 2. I understand the chapter better now. After that I continue writing the notes.

Actually, before posting this...I was at my void deck, doing EL summary and writing the notes(adding infos). 15 mins to 2am. Hope I can sleep till 8am. I want at least 6 hours of sleep.

Haiss....

2006-10-13T17:02:00.000-07:00

my monitor screen is fucking pissing me. It keeps on-ing n off-ing itself. Stupid screen...
I hv a lot to study...but i am afraid i hv to back down my religious one.. I have improved a lot i guess. Amaths improve...Chem improve, physics not really...ahhh wadever. I am still feeling not good enough. need to get A for all. I got 17/25 for the first time for EL summary. I tried some exercise on my own..and look at the answer...it works...this method is much more safer...i know what i did to get 17. :D that's the most important thing. However, yesterday...I tried another exercise, the method is not working well....it's abt summarising someone's personal recount...what that someone is thinking n events that happen...it require more than just picking up the points. It requires thinking n deeper understand of the question and inference. Damn....stupid screen...difficult for me to type...sorry if i hv typo errors. I m sooo bothered wif other things...like not handing in my testimonial to mdm fong. I went to sch yesterday to find her...but couldnt. At first, i call her...no answer...then I go CC again...came back at 4++ to check...saw mrs Ong and scared her...well not purposely...and then ask Mdm Fong's whereabouts...she said she just went home 15MINUTES ago. =_____='' AHHHH!!!! Fuk!! I cant concentrate studying liao...i feel uneasy....what if she dun wanna accept anymore testimonials? Then i'm probably hv no good points. I thought she said whatever ur friends wrote was not good cos' they're all adjectives which u can pick out from the dictionary...so i was like it's useless, then i dun bother to put keep it properly. And i lost it....the last person to read was my aunty...i dunno where she put it....if i ask her she would hv said she has forgooten where. =___='' so forget it.. Oh well....i hope Monday, she will still accept it. and i hope i m not the only ones..paiseh le.

Sheeesh...i've not been studying effectively...damn it. need to get to work...

Laugh

2006-10-10T05:04:00.000-07:00

Damn. I had a bad day...at first...was the going to sch. Late...nevermind that, what's worse is that i forgot my EZlink. OKok...then that's over. Go sch..damn vexed. And Mr Zafran was there to worsen it. Ask me why...i say i slept at 3. Cos' many work...he said he dun care. Like duhz, who cares what i do anyway? Then was told to get the late comer form. Argh...another nonsense. I must read a stupid script just to get the form. =___=''
OK...wrote my name and see that Mr. Heck-care again to sign the slip. Saw Ms Tan and gave her the work she requested. And then back in class...out of nowhere, a stupid piece of paper was on my table...i asked kamal abt it. Another nonsense. Maths was all good. Then recess was another nonsense...look for ms lee, she's dunno where. In the end, saw her liao. Then after recess, another nonsense...Mrs Goh went thru the chemistry paper 2....so fast that i became lost..and went to sleep. Then the monster...gave us the test which i didnt hv time to study for. Nonsenses.That Heck-care keep reminding me abt the so call deal. I would rather skip sch than to follow that stupid deal. By then I thought the nonsenses has ended. However in the evening when I wanna go home, the stupid 282 bus was so lousy that i hv to wait for 30minutes...

Oh well...i think what i need is a good sleep.

Day in KFC

2006-10-08T04:25:00.000-07:00

hi blog..
A while ago, I experience a change of mood. Then when I recall my anime drawing again, I feel better. I feel as tho my drawing is alive. :)

Anyway, today I planned to go CC to study. When I got there, the aircon is still not fixed yet. Oh well..I leaned on the window panel near the lift and saw a schoolmate.
He was planning to go to CC too. But after knowing abt the aircon, he changed his mind. So we head down to KFC to study. He is a SEC 3 student. We dont really know abt each other...but seen each other in sch but never actually talk. Today, we just did. Kinda cool to know smth abt job.

I've thought it's possible to study in KFC. And yea...it's not possible if u r there to read. I try reading the model answers that Gill gave and history txtbook. Oh...unproductive. I can only do work. And help that SEC 3 guy in physics.

I am a kid

2006-10-06T18:21:00.000-07:00

Well. Last night I watch animax. It was nice. I can feel as though I was myself 7 years ago. I love the feeling of being in a fantasy world of anime. How I wish reality is like that. Full of adventures, nice-sweet-caring people,etc. Somehow the feeling brings back memories of younger me. For half an hour or so, I could just stay blindly into space and imagine a lot of stuff. I was all alone, so I treated the time badly. No one disturb me, the house is so quiet with one 'gundu' staring into space while he is in his imaginary world.

Ok, enough of nonsense. As I expected, my physics result is not as good as my chemistry despite having done some assessment. Physics got a 4, Chemistry is 2. Thus, it is not all because of how much you work for it, it is how smart you work for it. My combined humanities, is not very surprising. F9. Amaths, C5. Emaths, A1. EL, D7...all fail liao.

Majority of the class absent themselves on Friday. 21/41 came. That was cool. The class became so quiet except for the aunties who talked about going JC. Sometimes I wonder why do they want to choose JC when they even complain that being in secondary school is so stressful. Beats me...even me, who hardly hv stress, don't want to go JC. Guess they're looking for more challenges?
Anyway, with these results....I think I wont have time with MUIS examination(another national examination in religious class). My result is so below satisfaction.

Teachers are giving more revision worksheets...it's really difficult to do my own revision. I need to complete about 10 topics of chemistry, then re-read physics n Chem txtbook to strengthen basic foundation, read SS n History to understand fully and make my emaths n amaths solid. So many things. Now is 7 October. I must try to finish my chemistry by 10. Argh...cant make decision now.

I was amused then challenged

2006-10-04T04:30:00.000-07:00

I was feeling quite alright. I am really very sure that I can actually do my Amaths paper 1 very well and pass paper 2. Paper 1 was actually do-able. Paper 2...there's a lot i dunno. :) I hv identified the topics in paper 2 that have pull me down. I have yet to identify my chemistry weaknesses...one of which is stiochiometry.

Today, I got to know my overall result for chemistry. I got a WEAK A2...VERY weak indeed; 70. I think if I'm not wrong, i got an A2 for mid year too. MYE for chemistry was really easy. I want an A1. I am the lowest distinction ass in the class for chemistry. And I actually believe that there's a lot of intelligent ass in my class. Sad to admit, but I am a bit prejudice towards intelligent buggers in the class. They can score distinction even with last minute preparations. :D

I've found a chemistry book...twenty-three years series? LOL..1979 - 2002. I found it quite long ago..last year or earlier this year. AND I just started it on Monday. I never do any chemistry assessment for prelim preparation. All I did is READ my mindmap almost everyday in July and then during the prelim practical..and finally prelim itself. I didn't use my mindmap to its fullest advantage. I didnt memorise it, just plain reading. BUT for physics, I did a lot of assessment. I completed the whole book of multiple choice except topic 1 and I hv a feeling i did not do as well as my chemistry.

Results

2006-10-03T05:45:00.000-07:00

We have received almost all our papers. It was really nothing to be happy about. Some people are irritating me with his 'all As' or at least almost all, with his behaviour of 'I befriend only with smart ppl'.

Anyway, that's their problem.

Now, it seems that I am still not clear on how to answer source based questions. I failed both History and SS. I thought I know history content more than SS...but it seems like I scored SS more than history. It's a lenient marking. I can tell. Yet I still fail. Sometimes I wonder what went wrong for history...it's my source based! My physics is also deteriorating. For paper 1, i got 27/40. That's bad enough.
My EL...weak...49. =___=''

However, there is also some good news(at least to the sub teacher). For my chemistry, mdm fong wrote "a very good improvement". But she still say...practical is badly done. SO i'm likely to fail? I dunno. Then Emaths...i am kind of not happy even though MR Tay say I improve a lot....A1 but a WEAK A1. He also commented on my Amaths..he also say I hv improved a lot. Yet i only get C5. =___='' ARGH! OK...my mistakes for paper 1 are all careless mistakes and some really cant do. I believe I can actually scored REALLY well for it if I had the time to check everything or DO it carefully. Paper two...like I said, no confident. This is a mental problems that I have to overcome. Finally, my EL teacher actually wrote on my paper that my sentence construction has improved.

I just want to be a hero of myself.

Then the class, I think they did pretty well for comb humanities. I am trying to relax on bucking up my SS/His. I cant afford to kill myself no more. Yep...i m quite angry...haha..not demoralised. I dunno whether this is a good/right attitude but it's just me...hate to lose.
My weakest is my Comb Human and EL.

Just as I expected

2006-09-29T04:27:00.000-07:00

Amaths paper 2, was difficult. Yea...like Emaths...paper 1 is giveaways while paper 2 is takeaways. Amaths is the same! haha..paper 1 is giveaways and paper 2 is takeaways. Well...actually it's still not difficult. It's just that I am not well prepared.
I realised I was not confident at all with most of the answers. I even stopped half way to the answer for some questions. After the paper ended, I went to CC to try some of the questions...oh..it's just me with no confident. I can actually get the answer...but I was not confident and thought why waste time on this unlikely-to-be-the-answer workings? haha..

It's a bit unfair cos' usually surface area formula of cone is given(like in tys). But Mr Tay with his "It's better to memorise", didnt provide us. HAha...6 marks gone. 10 marks gone for qn 12 and 6 more gone for velocity. Others are no time to think or no confident...wasted. ahha..and i was quite irritated with the invigilator..the HOD 'nyonya'. Walao! She always walk at my area...distracting me..then like act 'cough'. She does it as though I did something wrong...i know I am very slow la..but distracting me like dat is not fair for me. And I am weak in vectors.

OK...so today, I went to CC again. I was feeling more angry than tired. But in CC, i felt asleep. HAHA. I looked thru my Amaths paper 2...redo some. Calculated my lost marks...it's abt 47 marks lost. You know what that means...right? Fail. Damn...then I do my physics..ONLY. Did about 2 topics...ONLY. I was soooo behind time..cos' I was having a stupid migraine that held me back. Physics blue book and Emaths tys to be done. I hope I hv so much energy tonite to stay awake and complete them till tomorrow. But usually, i will end up sleeping la. =__=''

oh great

2006-09-28T04:46:00.000-07:00

For some reasons, I am becoming to like English. No! Not the comprehension...but in writings. :)
Oh well, will it make any different to the current state of my English?
No use making such a statement.

Anyway, I'm back on track.

I was quite disappointed when Mr Tay say that the Amaths paper was easy. I mean, I cannot expect such things in the real O lvl. Maybe to others who cant do the paper, it is quite demoralising. TYS is all you need to build up your basic foundations as well as exposure. That's what I realised when some ppl ask me questions. EVEN i forgot some concept. I guess what Mr Tay said is true. Do TYS. :) Gosh...I haven done my Emaths TYS...there's a lot to cover!

Anyway blog, I will take you as my friend from now on. :)

I told someone, my only aim for this prelim is to pass EL. I guess with the fact that I failed my EL means I have failed myself. I was quite confident that I will pass back there, but the result prove me wrong.

I am running away...leaving bad memories to them...I'm gone :D

Stop hiding, just say it!

2006-09-27T06:31:00.000-07:00

I know I've failed again. MAN! FARK! I am not demoralised...I am just angry!
ok...dont exaggerate.
But i am truly vexed. She told me at the wrong day and time. Physics paper was quite tough despite doing the red book, then came Ms Tan with her, "I think you have to do essay for me...". Oh great...another unproductive effort. "Ok," is all i said to end the conversation.

Hmm..what went wrong? I spent too much time on convincing myself what the answer for the comprehension question is to be. And not much time for summary. Worst of all, I guess the convincing part was not at all worth it. I guess I will have to practice more. Still got two more assesment book for EL. Will finish them before Olvl.

I am still progressing on my Amaths, Emaths and Chemistry. With all these done...I will concentrate on my physics and comb humanities. I must find a way to make myself remember the facts. I think I've got it. :) But still need to read the txtbook.

Goodnews: My migraine going away. Soon I will be back on track.
Badnews(forever): EL fail

Cool

2006-09-26T01:20:00.000-07:00

I feel funny, happy, bored, lazy..
Today, had my History paper. It was damn jialat. Not really ar. I didnt finish the structured and 1 source based. Social Studies also..worse than history. I already stated my reason for not doing well for SS. haha...migraine and reading the txtbook is as good as not touching it. Actually..history, all i did is read my notes. haha..scared too much info cannot absorb. So my notes is the best summarised version. Although a lot of points i missed out, it's better than SS which i know nothing at all.

Amaths paper...was surprisingly easy. Well...i hope I am smart enough la, but I dunno qn 4. Lost at least 4marks. haha...it doest mean I am good la. I may make a lot of mistakes....especially function! I know how to do but dunno how to express it. Besides, there's Amaths paper 2 coming. Tomorrow is physics. I really need to study chapters on electricity and radiation. Very weak at those.

Flashbacks>>> Emaths paper 1 was a BLISSSS. Emaths paper 2,...OH PUHLEASEE....no time to finish sia! Quite difficult somemore. I scared Amaths paper 2 also same x__x
Chemistry was ok. fair.

I am gonna leave soon

2006-09-23T06:36:00.000-07:00

Oh well..I look towards saving money to buy laptop and develop my interest in vocal.
I have not been saving money ever since I keep the habit of going to CC to study almost everyday, even after school. Fasting month is coming...I think I will be able to save again. And at the same time...do well for my examinations. I am too much I guess.

I mean, I hv neglected myself from teens world and teens angst that now I am who I am now. Or maybe I had a lonely childhood which led to this problem. Whatever it is, I think my must learn to be a teen..like others. Must learn to complain, must learn to dislike, must learn to be more naive. Wouldn't that make me an irritating bugger?

Stupid. I should remain for who I am. :D Wow...having a blog to post nonsense is quite fun. lol. Haha...actually I like fasting month. It's the only time any human can appreciate food EVEN if they taste not as good as what ur tongue's would consider delicious. Without fasting, u will never know how delicious a food actually is. :D And also...water become more precious to u.. So what i enjoy most is the breaking of fast. :D HAHAHA...it feels so good to eat by that time...at the same time..grow fat so easily. =__=''

What ar....

2006-09-22T07:27:00.000-07:00

I dont know about my condition. Maybe getting worse. Yesterday...whatever I read is lost instantly. My SS textbook and notes that i've read is as good as not touching them. However, today when I read some comprehension passage in CC...I can understand it. And yea, I did 3 topics of physics. Tomorrow may be my last day going CC because Sunday is already the starting of fasting month. I don't know how am I going to study by then. I need to find a solution. But often, they're not supported by my mom. Urgh! Can't she sense my urgency? I also did try to bring her attention to my migraine problem. She said go to the nearest clinic. Urgh!..it's EXpensive!! Why not just go to polyclinic!? She still needs money...and so do i. So with that suggestion of going to the nearest clinic, i shall call off the visit to the doctor.

Now my next problem is the fasting month. How to study? My mom still have doubt of me going to the nearest mosque in West Coast...she always say it's far from CC. I was like, so what? Can walk what...tat's what I always do on Friday. However, I wanna upped my demand. I want to bring a bike there...so I can cut the time of walking. You know...come and go to mosque. Furthermore...I hv religious test...urgh! Some period as prelims!!! And also the religious national exam...same period as OLVL!!.. solutions solutions...

...

2006-09-20T07:01:00.000-07:00

any suggestion for the title?

I dunno whether I am still going to have migraine..cos' i am still sane.
However...I am still...having mix feelings...arghh...
I feel as though I hv forgotten a time of the past..a period of time...
Today, I saw someone's bro..I was thinking, how come I dont hv. Then after CC, I saw a cat...it reminded me of urrgh...
Can someone beat me up?

OK...am I sane? or insane? Nevermind.

I must stand still. I think I am back to myself. It just come and go...hmm..wonder why. Two different person in me? Ok fine...think my mood is changing...damn..i dun want to hv migraine anymore...

Something is not right...

2006-09-19T06:42:00.000-07:00

Ever since I came back from CC on Sunday, I am feeling numb.
Yesterday, I felt that everyone in class and in CC was against me. And then I went for a haircut...which looks so yuck. Actually, all I wanted is to have the hair touching my neck and ears to be cut, but it turned out that a large scale of my sides were cut.Oh well...at first i was like: WADDEe...(then)..oh well...what is done is done. =__=
Anyway..

Today, I had little confident cos' of my hair and also the fact that I was late AND for not studying for SS. I served 2 hours detention outside the staff room. I was having lots of negative thoughts. I dislike what that Mrs Tan did...urgh..i felt as though she's being prejudice towards me. I think my lack of showing my cool side has deteriorated the respect that I should get. (Lol...since when did i deserve such respect? LOL) Okay..that was what i thought...my negative shits running wild.
After 2 hours of vex, I head down to the toilet...not to actually do my hair...but to wash my face. Saw Kamal...i ask him: "What's the different between migraine and headache"
As usual, he would answer formally for whatever reason...but I like it. So yea, I think i am actually having migraine and not headache. Maybe I should consult a neurologist. Would it be costly? no yes yes? Then forget it. :D

This is what I get from the web:
"Migraine without aura is the most prevalent type and may occur on one or both sides (bilateral) of the head. Tiredness or mood changes may be experienced the day before the headache. Nausea, vomiting, and sensitivity to light (photophobia) often accompany migraine without aura." -

"Migraine with aura is characterized by a neurological phenomenon (aura) that is experienced 10 to 30 minutes before the headache. Most auras are visual and are described as bright shimmering lights around objects or at the edges of the field of vision (called scintillating scotomas) or zigzag lines, wavy images, or hallucinations. Others experience temporary vision loss.

Nonvisual auras include motor weakness, speech or language abnormalities, dizziness, vertigo, and tingling or numbness (parasthesia) of the face, tongue, or extremities."

The Website

I guess I am having a general one then.
Evidence: Change of mood (numb feeling and negative) and headache today
Signs and symptoms: Hands feel cold...? Bullshit it's cos i m in the aircon room. haha.

Guess it's not so serious...hais...dilemma.

My Mistakes

2006-09-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

I found another mistake. It seems like the reason why I progress very slowly is due to my slow in thinking process. I really think slowly of what to do when I actually read the Amaths qns. So another point taken, I must not take my time to think.

Next is my hair. It is getting longer! I had my 'botak' haircut in June. Now in mid September, it's time to have it cut again. I think I just want to have the sides cut. It feels really irritating when it touches my ears and my neck.

Then I must also take precaution during studying. I must not twirl my pens. And I must wear sweater when going CC. It's getting colder. My body cannot withstand the cold temperature anymore, especially when other muggers in the room ser the degree so low. I will have to wear long sleeves. If I hv a pair of glove to keep my hands warm, I would put them on too.

Still not happy. I didn't have time to finish my maths. I realised I was too tired that i woke up at 9am this morning. I was awake by 6am...then trying to do my work, and eventually, I fell asleep till 9am. By then, my concentration has gone. I checked the forum for any new stuffs, but nothing. Thus, I ended up making noise pollution and didn't do my work till 12.

At about 4pm, I went to CC. I wonder if I actually open the door so hard every time that everyone is always looking at me. GEE..distrupt them from studying :)
Haix...tomorrow I am going to waste $7 on haircut. I mean, it's only the side that bothers me..the top part is alright. Anyway, it's better than being call out in school regarding my attire.

Wonders

2006-09-14T06:45:00.000-07:00

Despite the hours of sitting solving my Amaths TYS questions, I still don't feel any sense of accomplishment. Last night, I told my mom about my plans. I want to complete differentiation by that night, complete integration by today...and complete relative velocity on Friday. The first thing she say was, I need to sleep...then say I need to rest etc. I was just trying to get her support to let me stay up late or go to CC everyday and be home late. I want to tell her it's not as simple as 4-7hours of studying = I am very smart/hardworking. Ok...maybe I m wrong, it's all about my health.

So today, someone asked me about my revisions. She asked me what time I sleep every night, what hv i revised, etc. Well...I've completed most of my notes, but never on 'hands-on' stuff. I think I should just list out what I actually want to complete.

1) Amaths TYS
2) Emaths TYS
3) Physics (blue book) TYS
4) Chemistry FYS (at least 1 year)
5) Memorise all monster's sheets (the most important ones)
6) Complete (past years) prelim examination papers (at least one of each sub)
*All EL assessment is to be done almost everyday where there's time. [EL need practice]

These are some of it I can remember. And I want to complete them by THIS month. So far, what I have done is only my physics (multiple choice) TYS. And it's like only 1/10. And I finished the Physics TYS in 6 days when I actually wanted to finish it in 5days. Today is 14 of september. I hv 16 days left to complete what I want to for this month. By next month, I want to get everything perfect. There, the exposure of Mr Cool's plan. And today, I have not even done one question of integration...damn how to complete!?! I want to complete integration today!! Argh..haha...
OK, some ass will tell me to get real. Here's my reply: Look who's talking.

I am not intelligent like some of my classmates who can get distinction even with last minute preparation. I am not hardworking either, and I hate to be called a hardworker. I feel that being described as 'hardworking' is like you are FORCING yourself. So I would rather not be called 'hardworking'. Just call me a cool student will do. :D Cos' I am really cool :P.

Not knowing what stress is, can sometimes be an advantage. :)

2 hours wasted

2006-09-12T07:33:00.000-07:00

This is bad. My EL results show no improvement but deterioration.
I wonder what has changed my EL teacher attitude towards me. Is it because of my Teachers' Day card? I said i wanna get A1s for all sub. :D I hope to get more attention because I need help. She's still has the mindset of me being weak in everything though. I am just too afraid to say that I am good at some subjects. I am not weak for sure.

It seems like I am left behind in English. I think I should observe what and how others think when they answer comprehension questions. With Nancy, I realised that she is faster in getting what the passage is trying to say. I'm too slow for her. I have to read a sentence for 3-5 times before I actually get what it is saying. I was fortunate that she did not bring her EL FYS and had to share with me that day, or else I will never find out what are my weaknesses.

Well today, we had great time wasting time. All thanks to the 'monster', as the class call it. She wanted us to stay back after school to study. With the class ill-discipline, pessismistic attitude and her absent, we end up wasting time. One thing for sure is that I realised that we are not like other students in other schools where the students actually take their time to go to library to study and mug. We are always fooling around. Despite the coming prelim examinations, we are still not serious. It seems like we have no sense of urgency. I can sense the teachers' anger now. However, I still think monster's way of drilling us is wrong. Our class is unlike any others. We're bunch of wild monkeys, and leaving us alone in the class or even with her around, wouldn't budged us a bit.

Tight schedule

2006-09-11T07:07:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to complete my physics TYS(multiple choice) in 5 days.
Everything went smoothly until yesterday when I found out I hv tons of schoolwork haven't completed. I am supposed to complete the whole book by today. I have 4 chapters left? Oh well...it's either I do it tonight or tomorrow.

I still have Amaths and Emaths TYS to be done. The class received some good lecture from the Maths teacher today. Yes! He rocks. He has the attitude of 'let the past be the past and concentrate on what you are going to do now'. I am only completing my physics and maths. Emaths still have miles to go, but quite simple...so is Amaths. It's just that I need some help in understanding some concept on differentiation and integration. Although this guy rocks, I feel that he isn't paying any attention to me. Yes, I understand...he got the whole class to take care of. I think i will have to chase that white-haired teacher then. His verbal explanation may be fast and confusing but he is willing to give me a visual form of explanation. :D I understand that way better.

Many people asked me whether I am stressed, my answer is 'no'. Well, I don't really know what stress is. But whenever i did something wrong or lazy, I will say I am stressed :P. HAHA...just an excuse. Maybe I am really stressed but I don't feel it. And during recess, someone say I am getting crazy cos' of stress. Changing my voice and disturb Wei Zhou 'breaking voice'. :D Well, I was just trying to appear cheerful and friendly.

Oh, today physics practical. It's really bad. The first question was like totally new to us. Or was it not? lol. Well, i will have to learn from my mistake then. Argh..

It's a bit unusual today in CC. Too many muggers and I was fortunate that there was 1 seat left. The Clementi Town regular mugger were there too, probably it's that girl who introduce the place to them. And I don't like my action today. I kept spinning the pens and it drop for like so many times...yet I was so arrogant and kept spinning. I was listening to my MP3, so I am not so bothered. :D A little bit inconsiderate of me. Then, I saw a cutie and a boy. Since there was not enough chair, they share seat. The girl looks more like a secondary school girl and the boy looks like some sort of primary or kindergarden kid. I don't know...but anyway, I was leaving by then. However, I didn't take the initiative to take the chair to them. Instead, i went to her and say, "You need a chair? there.."
Ehh...sounds rude sia. lol. Overall, i really dislike my attitude in CC today. So arrogant. Forgot to smile and i feel like I am acting 'action' or 'cute'. +__+ Yuck!

Must complete my physics and maths TYS...

Teachers' Day

2006-09-10T04:10:00.000-07:00

Yea! Second post! :P
I know it's a bit late...but I have no happy thing to post. So I write about the teachers' day celebration....AGAIN(another blog, write liao).
This blog is still under construction tho...:D

Okok... the Teachers' Day celebration was fascinating.There's buffet and geeks, and my class...we hv our own original stuff. Nath, the vocalist + guitarist and me, the illusion guy. Nath was singing out of his vocal range, and so he has to strain..ahaha..that part was funny but the whole thing was cool, especially with Mrs Loo looking so interested in the music. haha. Then it was my turn. WELL...I wasn't PREPARED..so I have to IMPROVISED. =__=''

Gee..I did the same old outdated stuff. I didnt think of adding some waves in my 'dance' except for the most demanding move, 'moonwalk'. Mdm Fong commented: no more law of friction. haha. Upon moonwalking, I actually bled my toenail...but thanks to the excited audiences that I kept on going.

The most enjoyable part of the event was no other than the food. :DIt's my first breakfast for the week. :D I ate a lot! I love the chicken! :PThen the cake! YUMMY!! Gosh, i didnt realised that I actually spoonfed Sherly with one of the cakes. Hahaha...nevermind, it's so sweet of me. HAHAA. It was to test for the present of alcohol.
So we use Sherly + Cake = "yes! got alcohol!"
Then I took that white cake. AHH!! It's delicious!! I took two of it. :XThe chocolate taste...the yummy chocolate...still lingering in my mind...then the chicken...tasted like pizza...ahha....AHH!! YUMMY!

The girls are shouting the guys are posing. I still hv that white uniform on my shoulder..haha...easy for me to identify myself :P

There, our vice principal joining us...wahh!! Hey, LOOK properly at the girl at the left hand side...the one bending with her mouth open. :P She looks the same on the first photo! She's wearing a mask!? :P

This is what I like about my class...full of sadistic stuff!! My first time kena stack...but just coincidentally...cos' Irwan was behind me and everyone targeted him....I also kena. :P

Still struggling to escape..I thought I am going to break my leg. =__='' Anyway, the class really made the right choice of not stacking me before till then. I'm too dangerous for you all. :P

The first one was Mr. Cool showing a move he never done before.
Then the next was so call Michael Jackson Billie Jean dance. =__=''

Here's another...
Improvised again.
But I like this one...especially around 40-45seconds. Never thought that move can be done. AHAHA...

Mr.Cool

2006-09-06T17:54:00.000-07:00

Hi.
The only reason for creating this blog is to satisfy those KPOs so that they could link me and read freely.
So yea, Welcome to Mr Cool blog - Disclosure of Mr. Cool. :P